lost friendship...still dreamt abt my bst friend....

For the longest time we haven't spoken to each other. Maybe it was your arrogance that made me believe you didn't care about me. Or maybe it was the coldness I gave you as a response to your arrogance. I guess deciding whose fault is useless now because all I know is that things aren't what they used to and will probably remain that way. You may never know how much I loved our friendship. So when everything changed, I was dragged into a deep depression and hated you with a passion. How could have I lost my best friend? I know you always felt we had contrary thoughts & Secretly, you knew I knew. But we never spoke about it. I liked the fact that it never got in the way of our friendship. And now I wonder what horrible thing happened that made you ruin it for the both of us.

But maybe you'll be happy to know that I had a dream about you last night. It made me so happy, my first thought was to write it down. In my dream, we were both talking. I can't quite remember how it began, but I remember us walking through the mall. What were we doing at the mall? I do not even know. They say dreams are the path to your subconscious mind, but I really don't understand how a mall would be applicable to this. Continuing with the dream... it was the first time I had seen you in a very long time so I decided to talk to you out of politeness. It was small talk; "So how have you been doing?" "How's so and so?". Wow...you were so different than from what I remembered. We sat down on a bench. I guess the awkward silence that followed made you ask something about my religion. You always knew me as the girl who was deeply religious and so you knew I'd easily break the silence trying to explain these things to you. I began talking crazily, about this and that, that and this-I honestly don't even remember what I said. But I was so into explaining such concepts that to you my eyes kept wandering as though there was too much to explain at once. As I kept rambling, I heard you chuckle. I looked at you in confusion and I saw you smiling at me.

You smiled at me as if you were saying, "I missed you". It was at that moment when I saw the old you. So I smiled back.

7 YRS OLD FRIENDSHIP LOST TOUCH...

Since last we touched.....

our minds have parted and between us now we find a wall.

Indifference fills our hearts complete

As though there never was

A you and me.

Friendship has died and with it all respect.

Our relationship is that of STRANGERS

But we can't turn back

The hands of time to regain the time we lost…

BYE BYE 2009 & WELCOME 2010

Life is running at a very high speed now days. It’s seems as I just enjoyed my 2009 New Year party & the whole year has ended. Now the day has come and now it’s already 2010. Life has changed so much. I am thinking of good old life at my college place and people existing there (even those New Year days). Now that I have entered the big bad corporate world; I can’t even see such happiness and people around. Every person has a second face with peace and humanity but no one can see that, even they themselves can’t see that. Everyone runs for Money, Property, Petrol, and Gas and of course for the life. But no one is sitting and thinking for peace…..
If this is what Grownups do…I wish I could always be a kid… I would have been happier then. But a big thanx to those pillars of strengths, who helped me stand still in earthquake type situations. (Thank u so very much Pappu, Sunil, Dolly, Nika, Donald & all my Friends)
The year was a life changing experience for me. It showed me what am I good at…what are my abilities. I danced & danced & danced this year. Partied a lot. Attended many family get-togethers and now I feel why was I running from such parties earlier…family reunions are not that bad too, in fact they so much fun. I have realized I’m indeed damn lucky to have my family & friends around all the time. But let me share with u you something that fluttered happiness & those who became the reasons for my sadness in the year 2009.
· 7 years old friendship came to its end. With no big reason…but now when I look back I see myself laughing, giggling with those whom I’ve lost contact with... well its sheer their loss, I’ve got no regrets. I would always cherish those beautiful 7 years spent with all of them…I lost a whole family…but then they lost something 2…

· 2nd May ~ learned to dance & did my first stage show ever. Also anchored the event. Practiced for a month & the event was a super hit. I myself could not believe I am really talented man (hehehe).

· 1st June ~ I gave my 1st Job interview & got cleared. Started working soon. Was surrounded by fantastic colleagues, an amazing boss. Office was like a picnic spot for. Being an intern we were much pampered for 2 months. Made some extremely good friends. Learned a lot 2.

· 11th June ~ My dear sister was blessed with a adorable baby boy- Gautam whom only I’ve got the right to call Shonu.



· Some day of Aug ~ I was asked to organize yet another Swagat Sandhya for my cousin’s marriage. I was thrilled. We started our practice & all my weekends (except my B’day & few more) till December went in practice. I got promoted… from being an anchor, I became a dance teacher, an event organizer…Wow... What fun were those sessions. Laughing, shouting, playing, dancing chatting, everything.

· Month of Sept ~ well normally I start my B’day planning almost 365 days b4…dts right. As soon as the clock strikes 12’00 on my B’day… I start counting days for my next yr B’day. So finally only a month 2 go and shopping planning…everything was on roll. Even my friends were super excited.

· 17th Oct ~ Jst a day b4 my B’day was Diwali Pooja & I was all set for my B’day d nxt day. The whole day I was chatting wid my friends about the other days plan…I was in our office for the Pooja & it was just another ½ hr 2 go…I even asked panditji to continue the Pooja 4 some time so that around 12’00 I’ll be at someplace rather then in between the road way back home.

· 18th Oct ~ yes dis was it 12’00 clock my “BIRTHDAY”….but wts wrong nobody wished me..i was upset…but I had no idea a big surprise was waiting for me back home…wohou…..wt a party was that…& den the nxt whole day…even though my cousin ditched me on d vry last moment by not coming & making me cry on my B’day …I still hold some super kool memories 4 my B’day…the nxt day party was rocking as well…

· 3rd DeC ~ the Swagat Sandhya day…the show was a super hit…even though due to some reasons we were nt able 2 complete the show… but almost 80% was done…I received numerous accolades from everybody…I still am…

· 31st Dec ~ 1ST time I arranged a new year party in a time of jst 1 day yet was extremely amazing… it was kind of a standup comedy with a dance show on every family member…everybody laughed their hearts out…

What an amazing ending of the year…eventhough I broke some bonds in the beginning of the year, it ended with a many more new relations new bonds…number of new & happy memories….i’ll cherish the year 2009....BYE BYE 2009

Every end has got a new start… it altogether a new beginning here welcome 2010...
As usual I’ve got some Wishes to fulfill for the New Year 2010
· Dancing & Anchoring (next level)
· International English & also Hindi-Urdu training for communication (At least to host events in a much better way)
· Learning one musical instrument (that I could not in 2009)
· Joining an event management company (to enhance & polish my talent)
· Organs donations at least eye alone (hello wait wait not now after my death)
· Donate education to orphan children (if I have excess money)
All things written above are just my wishes and not the reason to live my life. I believe that the same blog on the next year will have lots of happiest memories in life.