lost friendship...still dreamt abt my bst friend....

For the longest time we haven't spoken to each other. Maybe it was your arrogance that made me believe you didn't care about me. Or maybe it was the coldness I gave you as a response to your arrogance. I guess deciding whose fault is useless now because all I know is that things aren't what they used to and will probably remain that way. You may never know how much I loved our friendship. So when everything changed, I was dragged into a deep depression and hated you with a passion. How could have I lost my best friend? I know you always felt we had contrary thoughts & Secretly, you knew I knew. But we never spoke about it. I liked the fact that it never got in the way of our friendship. And now I wonder what horrible thing happened that made you ruin it for the both of us.

But maybe you'll be happy to know that I had a dream about you last night. It made me so happy, my first thought was to write it down. In my dream, we were both talking. I can't quite remember how it began, but I remember us walking through the mall. What were we doing at the mall? I do not even know. They say dreams are the path to your subconscious mind, but I really don't understand how a mall would be applicable to this. Continuing with the dream... it was the first time I had seen you in a very long time so I decided to talk to you out of politeness. It was small talk; "So how have you been doing?" "How's so and so?". Wow...you were so different than from what I remembered. We sat down on a bench. I guess the awkward silence that followed made you ask something about my religion. You always knew me as the girl who was deeply religious and so you knew I'd easily break the silence trying to explain these things to you. I began talking crazily, about this and that, that and this-I honestly don't even remember what I said. But I was so into explaining such concepts that to you my eyes kept wandering as though there was too much to explain at once. As I kept rambling, I heard you chuckle. I looked at you in confusion and I saw you smiling at me.

You smiled at me as if you were saying, "I missed you". It was at that moment when I saw the old you. So I smiled back.